The death of my father has changed me forever.
This time of year is a potent season of mass human transition. He chose to transition just prior to Halloween/All soul's day and I manifested to spend this 1 year anniversary of his death in an ancient walled city, Evora, in central Portugal (a country which he loved dearly),with a chapel of bones & souls, dedicated to death. It's helped me to bring in new subtle perspectives of my own grief journey that I was struggling to deal with prior to visiting this place.
I have been around the death of loved ones all my life but this initiation has been beyond anything previously experienced in this life.
The fabric of me has been torn asunder into a type of chaos that my words will never do justice to the energy or collection of events that have transpired in the wake of this enormous loss.
I was propelled into the darkest reservoirs of myself through the shock of this reality this time last year and who am I one year on?
I am evolving into a new person on all levels of my being, with a depth of compassion for life/death that I cannot explain in a linear fashion. I am both hard and soft. Deep and open, to the complexities of this human journey.
Grief is a taskmaster that holds nothing back.
When death finds you or your beloved's, all you can do is let go into it’s all consuming relentless current or you will sink, quick and fast.
Sinking may be the medicine you personally need. Let it unfold naturally.
Grief is a journey unique to each one of us, so please let no one tell you differently in their need to help you “move on”.
I thought I was prepared to meet death head on, having worked in a healing facilitation capacity with others for nearly 10 years now. I smile now at my naive audacity. How could I be prepared for something so unfathomable in actuality?
I prayed ceaselessly; I made countless offerings for peaceful transition for him and our family; I had many out of body powerful visions in the lead up to his death and was mentored by an incredible death doula in the US before returning home to his final transition ~ yet all of this due diligence could never have prepared the child heart within me for the enormity of the loss of him.
All former versions of me are relatively obsolete now in the aftermath, as the loss of dreams; of allies & lovers; of my child self’s unrealised and unspoken dreams/needs that were not met by him in the ways my heart called for, both consciously and unconsciously. These all vie for my immediate attention now which is a huge self love initiation.
As we lose the people in our lives that held the role of an “Authority Figure” or those we loved, our soul is called into a crucial review process of our own incarnation where a whole new template of living is constructed and installed within our psyche.
We are called into a new level of self -government, self- parenting and recommitment to life.
For me, I have never felt so alone in this world after his death. The death of a parent can also completely disband a family for a time as each individual finds their way within the cauldron of grief.
I went deep and in that there was no one who I felt, or allowed to meet me in that space. I became totally disillusioned in humanity for a time in the direct aftermath. Only in that place could I see that I was crossing the divide myself and facing my own mortality of ultimate aloneness in transition from this world to the next. I also followed him home, wanting to ensure he was safe.
This was nothing new to me, having been naturally inclined to such mediumship work of passing souls on from a young age, yet never knowing that was what I was doing.
I am writing this piece to share my own process of death, life and grief firstly to birth a new time for myself but also to provide perhaps a little support or solace to another in a time that is supremely difficult to connect to anyone or anything that genuinely offers support.
Grief can be a time in the absolute wilderness of the soul.
In my grief, I let everything go.
I had no interest in the things that once fuelled my passions. There was a shutting down and dismantling of everything within me I formally loved. I was put on eternal pause.
I could not have foreseen this reaction nor understood the effect loss of this kind would have on me and those closest to me. My ego thought I had it all figured out but it was a spiritual bypassing trick that could not stand up in the raw primal energy of the unpredictable and all-consuming grief that settled within me. I made decisions I perhaps would not have made in a "rational" frame of mind, but I cannot determine the validity of that statement either as this was death and life working through me in tandem with a force I could not control...who was I to attempt to control this eternal flow?
It’s been one year and in this year of walking across the death/life divide, I have met the most heart wrenching loneliness.
I have a pain in my heart for all the places those I thought were allies could not meet me in my time of need nor could they. Grief is a solo journey. The pain is just as deep for myself and the ways I have tried to run from myself to cope with the intense emotions that come like a tsunami taking me down for days at a time. There are whole months I have written off as I travelled the inner realms of loss.
“In some northern European cultures, the season of grieving the loss of someone close was known as a period of living in the ashes. This extended time was an era of descent, a movement into the underworld where the bitter tincture of grief was meant to be churned and metabolized into a medicine for the community. It was a sacred time, a time-out-of-time, in which the primary work was digesting sorrow. We have felt and seen the swirl of ash in the air. We are all being asked to do the sacred work of transmuting loss into wisdom.”
I am no stranger to the fires of extreme alchemy.
This initiation has been my greatest to date.
I hear him constantly in my ear; the way he would say things to me before but now with a higher perspective which is really fun!
He has been orchestrating magic in his wake, of alignments that can only be spirit’s doing.
I am grateful for the teachings that were sorrowfully imparted through this season of human life despite all the pain.
I see the gifts that are blooming in me to help others in similar places.
May all those who have lost loved ones find the way home to themselves in perfect time.
“Though we need to weep your loss,
You dwell in that safe place in our hearts,
Where no storm or night or pain can reach you.
Your love was like the dawn
Brightening over our lives
Awakening beneath the dark
A further adventure of colour.
The sound of your voice
Found for us
A new music
That brightened everything.
Whatever you enfolded in your gaze
Quickened in the joy of its being;
You placed smiles like flowers
On the altar of the heart.
Your mind always sparkled
With wonder at things.
Though your days here were brief,
Your spirit was live, awake, complete.
We look towards each other no longer
From the old distance of our names;
Now you dwell inside the rhythm of breath,
As close to us as we are to ourselves.
Though we cannot see you with outward eyes,
We know our soul's gaze is upon your face,
Smiling back at us from within everything
To which we bring our best refinement.
Let us not look for you only in memory,
Where we would grow lonely without you.
You would want us to find you in presence,
Beside us when beauty brightens,
When kindness glows
And music echoes eternal tones.
When orchids brighten the earth,
Darkest winter has turned to spring;
May this dark grief flower with hope
In every heart that loves you.
May you continue to inspire us:
To enter each day with a generous heart.
To serve the call of courage and love
Until we see your beautiful face again
In that land where there is no more separation,
Where all tears will be wiped from our mind,
And where we will never lose you again. “
Beware of the wandering seeking ones,
those hungry for the wisdom or gifts of another,
The ones who take, but do not give,
In order to fill their own inner void.
The ones who show up with impressive façades intimating kinship but perhaps the proverbial "wolf in sheep's clothing"?
These clever magicians who make the smooth moves to silently usurp another’s life force and knowledge,
For their own gain, often masking their own innate pain.
These are ones who drink from the inner well of another’s embodied knowledge, yet are disconnected from their own.
They talk the talk but do not walk the walk.
They are masters of deflection, clever manipulators of illusion and imitators of archetypes they strive to emulate to perfection.
They have no respect for the teachers who have walked before them nor a sense of honour in the passing down of lineage wisdom or the gifts imparted through another.
Pay attention as to how you feel in the company of those seeking your energy.
Is there mutual reciprocity in the exchange?
Watch the ones who eagerly court your kinship,
Then drop you after they have had their fill of your innocent extension of trusting heart or helping hand.
"Watch the taker's in your life, know the boundaries of YOU"
It can feel as if they have stolen the silent words encoded within you and twisted them into their own story, that of which they have not lived into within themselves.
They are essentially living and thriving on borrowed energy - yours or mine.
Watch the “new shining ones” emerging through this time ~ question everyone and everything through the magnifier of the heart to ascertain authenticity.
Feel the resonance of who and what is true within you.
There are many masters of heart embodied consciousness here at this time and there are other's from another timespace with no honour in their walk, who only like to talk, playing out ancient contracts of inner mass destruction.
Above all, KNOW YOU. What you will accept and how you wish to be treated.
I have also been sensing, particularly through this rapid fire of an eclipse portal, a multitude of alternate reality templates at work in the collective right now emanating the light. Many are false constructs working through people and places in order to confuse and cause chaos in the heart of those working towards unity in themselves and others. It's not an easy time as we really have to stay awake in the illusion on all levels.
Keep close the sacred medicine of your soul & heart's unique unfolding, trusting only those with kind hearts of integrity who show true kinship with a good level of integrated self awareness from the start.
Look for that spark of light emanating from the heart of the other, the subtle whisperings of spirit showing you these ones can be true to you.
No one is perfect, we are all working through our blindspots, but we also do not have to tolerate interference in our own energy through manipulative self serving tendencies.
Release with love the ones who have come to gain but not give in return.
Bless them on their way.
There are many now with an insatiable thirst for the esoteric mysteries of human/divine origins;
All is awakening within the heart of humanity – the full spectrum of all the creational timelines happening at once.
This thirst is driving corruption and darkness to activate in the heart’s of many which cleverly disguises itself as light.
It is up to each one of us to pay close attention to what is truth within the realities constructing around us and within ourselves each moment.
To weed out and rectify these corruptive forces within us, thus deactivating them in our greater realities, our circles and everyday lives.
Some are living out past timelines/lifetimes that did not end well (misuse of technologies/ancient wisdom in Atlantean & major planetary epochs of great shift ), where greed and betrayal went hand in hand or where magic was used in ways that caused irreparable damage to the unfolding of time.
These are looping until intent and consciousness willingly concludes them.
Let us be mindful of these timelines playing out within us, around us and through us so we can take our power back from parasitic forces that seek to gain and sustain from our life force, as an individual and as the human collective.
No one has the right to take what is not theirs.
As we claim our own innate light, power and wisdom, we close the gap on this type of destructive taking of another's power.
It begins and ends with us.
We are navigating times like no other!
Let the perfect balance of giving and receiving be now in the heart's of one and all.
Sacred balance of Yin/Yang and all energies returned to their rightful place.
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Heart blessings, MaRa
Humanity is waking up from a long deep sleep. An induced coma of grand cosmic proportions that which we have been in for thousands of years since the last descent of human consciousness in Atlantean times.
We are remembering again that our true power lies within and that we, as a species have been programmed and disempowered through a false light matrix into believing we have none.
We have given our power to church’s, priests, guru’s, institutions and inherited beliefs that have kept us locked into a prison of the mind, unable to access or accurately perceive our own connection to source/creation.
The jig is up, so to speak.
The veils have dropped ~ manipulation, power and abuse is seen for what it is. We are beginning to see clearly the misaligned agendas of those who seek the power and life-force of others, as the secret pockets of their tightly woven gowns of mistruth are coming undone.
The human heart is a powerful portal that can discern what is truth from fiction. It has been shut down, wounded and traumatized through the harsh realities of human life and the agendas of those energies that seek to disempower & fragment the human soul/spirit. Yet the heart is resilient and ever present. It is our primary guide in navigating us back home to the true self.
A whole movement has been built around the conscious awakening of humanity now. “Spirituality” is the new buzz word. It is a most needed shift, undoubtedly, and one humanity has been waiting for. Many of us have been and are looking for answers about our true origins; wanting to heal our pasts and the limitations that prevent us from living a joyful soul led embodied life of higher purpose.
There is an abundance of many different holistic and “spiritual” models out there to help us in this time of quickened evolution; many ancient teachings have been unearthed and dusted off that touch the core of the human/divine connection and new ones are being born from these core spiritual principals all the time.
There is great value and insight in some of these spiritual teachings that uphold truth and that can assist us in our deep remembering of who we truly are. However, this is also where personal discernment is VITAL, especially in current times. With such a surge of people awakening, there is inevitably an oppositional wave of energy that wants to keep people suppressed and under the thumb of control hierarchies, often under the guise of those supposedly representing the "light".
Question, observe and sit with teachings/teachers in your heart. See how your body responds and reacts…it is a wise reflector of mistruth. Often what you may be believing to be your truth is in fact is a distorted truth that may keep you trapped in the very energy you are attempting to liberate yourself from!
I have observed & experienced teachings from self-styled new age “Guru’s” dressed up in new finery that have clearly been misappropriated from other sources claiming to be their own but just repackaged in new jargon. Truth can't be owned and marketed by any one person, it is free for all, and truthfully we all source from the one infinite well. There are no quick or special ways to be enlightened. It takes deep inner alchemy, commitment to self and to life in all it's facets!
This way of gaining followers has become so prevalent in the "spiritual" community. It preys upon the vulnerable nature of the newly awakened consciousness seeker. There are many who claim to be unique and that the “true way” or new way to enlightenment or finding yourself is to be found through them.
True source consciousness and connection CANNOT be bought or sold through another. It’s is your divine right as a sovereign soul having a human experience to access source energy through your own channel.
I have sat with the inner tension I have been feeling the last few years as I observe the now lucrative "spiritual awakening" business model in full swing. Many things do not sit well with my heart. It seems that authentic, heart centered and integrated empowered service is being lost in the competitive marketplace of new ageist marketing technology and enlightenment jargon. Please don’t mistake me, there are many amazing souls offering valuable work in this world from a place of heart and integrity. I have been blessed to meet and co-create with many wise, humble, integrated masters of their own sovereign beingness. It is the less acknowledged underbelly of manipulation that exists within the so called “light” community that I speak of.
In transparency, I too have been a part of that movement. I began to wake up out of the illusion of a fear based reality into the conscious embodiment of many of my soul gifts about 10 years ago and some of these gifts have expressed themselves as being a vessel for healing source energy to move through me for others and for the earth at a time of huge transition.
In these current times, I am questioning the most authentic way/form to move forward in genuine heart service that is grounded and integrated in true embodied experience when I see so many offerings reflecting at their core greed, manipulation, power and control than true empowerment and heart service to others.
Spiritual teachers, leaders and channels who are operating from subtly seductive glossy platforms perfectly crafted to entice vulnerable people into their fields through the use of manipulative energy tactics that would have you believe they are unique and the only way to find yourself is through them and their teachings/offerings.
Navigating your spirit and knowing who you are as a whole being; as a soul, is so crucial in these times. There are many corruptive and very real forces out there that work through others, often disguised as “light” which seduce and induct you into a disempowerment program for their own gain.
This is part of a “false light matrix” of energy that works through the vulnerability and fear programs of the human psyche to plug in to your energy bodies in an attempt to gain control, separate you from your own sovereign connection to source consciousness and to disempower you. It's a tricky landscape, that's for sure.
False light energy beings hide in the background, they are masters of illusion. They find ways to distort light for their own gain.
You may be drawn to a teaching or teacher that presents a great outer front and gets you buzzed up and feeling special or unique to begin with, then as time goes on you may find you are tired, depressed and doubting in yourself. *RED FLAG * If you are being told that you can only connect to your true self through a specific process or medicine of another, that is a false construct and consciousness trap. This false light will always find a new way to subtly trick you into its grips if you believe you must give your power to someone else in order to connect with your soul’s true essence! Also, if you are being made to feel less them or belittled as part of a process of "Surrender" or any other manipulative justification technologies, then please pay attention. This is not empowerment nor is it love dressed up as "tough love".
Each of us has the free will to experience our life and learn our soul lessons in the way we choose. Some of us have had to learn to discern truth from lies through our interactions with these false light energies. The brighter the light sometimes the more attractive you are to these energies.
We are now in a time of really honing our ability to craft our own reality. Of choosing sovereignty over the old paradigm of "Guru/Student" or "Master/Slave" mentality.
The more of us who choose to honour self empowerment and honour that in each other, the greater balance that comes into our human journey and thus our world.
Both the light and the dark serve and are vital in the journey of the soul. We all have both; it's how we uphold the balance within ourselves and become whole that disables any false light energies from engaging us in any form.
Being awake, aware and discerning of our choices is vital now to enable us to stop repeating old cycles of disempowerment and control that have kept humanity on lock down for so long.
We hold that power within us.
No external power needed, just reclaim it.
May you be blessed and supported in pure loving truth through your own navigations of spirit. <3 MaRa
There is a mid-point when you are undergoing a life transforming inner/outer reality shift.
That place, which is so immense it can throw you completely into the mercy of divine orchestration and test your faith in your life's path.
A tender place, where you look behind you to see the crashed walls of an old way lying in a heap. You may feel incredibly challenged and lost within it all, yet your resilient soul know's how to navigate this spectrum of change even when you do not quite believe it so. Your heart & soul knows there is a higher purpose to this unfoldment. That is if you can trust.
This is a dying of an old way; the dying of a person you loved or a way of life you thought was impenetrable and solid. There is no solid ground in transformation. Yet there is the eternal resource of your heart..always ever present.
You may have no clue how to proceed.
You may be bereft and shell shocked to the core; not knowing which way is up or down depending on the life experience that triggered this unparalleled rewrite of your life.
It is the point of no going back.
It is the death portal of a resurrection of a new self.
A self that your future self knows intimately, but your current self may baulk from and resist.
No judgement here.
Be whomever you need to be until you are ready to walk through the gates of this new time.
Have gentle, loving compassion for YOU. Nourish and nurture that heart connection to yourself.. make it a priority over anything or anyone else. It will be your saving grace.
There may be some wobbles or tremors of aftershock from the immediate impact of life re-direction; some fears surfacing of the unknown or inner resistance in the face of this great change. That is a normal human response to a pivotal life shift from an old reality that no longer supports to the new self that is emerging through the rubble of life transformation.
All great shifts require faith.
Faith in yourself;
Faith in your own higher power/self and in your soul’s innate heart guidance.
Even when you cannot feel this connection, surrendering your attachment to a certain way or outcome opens the magic doorway to more than you could possibly imagine or conceive in a constricted internal heartspace.
Deconstruction is a necessary part of the human experience. Hopefully that deconstruction can happen in an easeful way for you that supports and nourishes you. Sometimes it does not and the process may choose the form of a derailment of your life for a time. This happens to enable the change your soul is calling forth to take shape and ground a new sense of self in the best way for you.
It is a great practice to challenge the ways of being we subscribe to and adopt/adapt as our own. Multiple mind programmes exist in our world.
Mind programmes of how to be; how to live; what to eat; how to speak; what to believe; how to relate.. etc ~ the list is endless.
Knowing yourself is the greatest gift you can give to you!
Understanding how to surrender the old self and when to ask for help, if needed, is vital.
We came here alone and we leave here alone, but we also have many beautiful allies in the human world and the elemental kingdoms that can assist with these transitional states of human life.
It requires a knowing of yourself; your personal needs and your unique heart & soul to determine the right support to nourish you in the moment. Listen carefully and you will always be guided to the best possible resources. ASK for them! Ask and you shall receive..honestly, that's how the universe works...
The body and the heart know when something is right for you. Tune in and trust what you receive in your inner awareness. The body does not lie.
I have been through many a “dark night of the soul” & death/rebirth experiences in my life. To the depth of my humanity and back. Most recently having the great honour of ushering my father into the afterlife, which has literally changed my life. Death, for me now, has a wholely different perspective. Extremely profound in it’s teachings. It will continue to teach me until my own dying day, I have no doubt.
I have also touched upon, even momentarily, the highest state of grace my soul could reach in this human body. Enlivening source consciousness within me feeding me with the awarenesses’ that sculpt my connection to the divine in my everyday life now and always.
I am so grateful to be able to experience both polarities so that I can now practice and humbly be a lifelong student of the middle way or middle path. Endeavoring to find my own way to balance...whatever that looks like.
As you are deconstructed, you enter an unknown space.
A space ripe for potential.
A birthing portal of immense power.
Even in the messy chaos of deconstruction, a fertile energy of rebirth begins to gestate.
Moving you into a new time; a new way.
Embrace it all.
Love it all.
Have gratitude for it all.
Welcome the new self that is emerging.
“We build a temple, a holy place within us, from the ashes of our former selves”
What a gift to be here on earth at this time of epic change. A time of complete upgrade of human consciousness that is unprecedented.
I am grateful to still be here.
Love and gratitude to my fellow travellers of this life! MaRa Elaine <3
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”
― Kahlil Gibran
I have been reflecting on the nature of suffering in my life; it’s ebbs and flows; it’s profound lessons and gifts; the places it has had me on my knees and in utter surrender to it's teachings.
We live in a time now where everything is hyper amplified. Realities are bending and contorting revealing to us the deepest underbelly of human experience and also the highest transcendent peaks of evolutionary cosmic awakening we have ever experienced in these physical bodies.
We are simultaneously connected and disconnected from life. There is pain and ecstasy dancing together as polarities bounce from one to the other in erratic waves.
Suffering has been no stranger in my life. I remember a deep existential sorrow in me from a young age that was a also side partner with innocent wonder.
I felt an incredible overwhelm of the world’s sorrow’s and I had no idea what to do with that energy so I learned to suppress and deny it a voice. I cried easily, often overwhelmed with emotions for no “apparent” reason and only finding relief through my tears. These waves would come and go throughout my life until I began the healer’s path of making the unconscious conscious within myself.
I began to understand the roots of of my pain were in my past and also in my empathic connection to the collective heart. These roots dug deep into my childhood and beyond into the multitude of past incarnations I began to viscerally recall and re-experience the energy of.
I saw that suffering was so ingrained in my cellular structure and energy bodies. I saw it's many hidden faces and knew it would not be easy to eliminate. I was not even sure if I did wish to eliminate suffering; it had become instilled in me as such a major element of my human experience.
I noticed that when I resisted life, I suffered more. That in fully embracing the hurt, the anger, the grief or fear I was granted a divine reprieve into a new state of being...that of stillness and of viewing momentarily a higher meaning.
Sometimes this connection to a higher source would last longer than the moment, for many weeks/months at a time. I slowly began to cognize that the pain I experienced represented a gateway to a reality far beyond the one I physically existed in.
There is a secret wisdom, a hidden doorway in the womb of our dark places. This wisdom holds a promise of new life and of unknown bounties that can only be accessed and utilized in the complete meeting of our suffering.
Suffering for suffering’s sake can be a destructive force (e.g. victim consciousness). This damaging loop can keep you hooked into the ulcerated psyche of humanity with no will to bridge across to a more healed and whole reality. I have definitely experienced this at times both on a personal and collective level.
There are groups and nations who are imprinted with a legacy of suffering that needs to be acknowledged, healed and released at a soul level. My people of origin, the Irish, have uniquely crafted that embodied suffering into a way of being that is so complex in it’s execution of cynicism, deep empathy, victim and visionary all rolled into one that they have baffled many a psychotherapist!
We can often cling to our pain like a friendship we know is toxic but we fear having no friends by letting it go. This ultimately causes more pain similar in attempting to block a running current of energy in full force flow which will relentlessly pound at the wall until it finds a way through.
The remedy and the gift of our pain only comes to us with total surrender.
It is crucial to question the pain we experience as to it's origin and if it is truly serving a higher purpose or simply keeping us locked in a cycle that serves nothing but the pain itself.
On another note,I have come across many misguided notions in our awakening spiritual collectives that point to the idea that if you are still cycling in spaces of suffering or physical pain that you are not as “evolved”.
I see great folly in that and I know at certain times I have been unknowingly duped by that mentality myself where I have unconsciously judged others for choices I deemed “unspiritual” or “less evolved” when I was in (what I perceived to be) a higher state of new awareness . I now humbly see a wider truth regarding this perception from pain's incessant raw teachings.
Having been through many painful death/rebirth cycles of awakening, I know that I was not seeing the full picture at those times and in fact I was running from more of my own unconscious shadow that just was not ready to be integrated at that time.
The truth always sets us free. If one is suffering, the whole world suffers in turn. We are all in this together, remember?!
I am a committed student of embodying the higher octaves of my soul into the here and now. This requires radical courage and trusting myself very deeply. Sometimes it's very messy and I wonder if I am going backwards instead of forwards.
There are continuous energetic upgrades that come as the soul is ready for them, that must go to the core and clear anything that prevents that higher light finding a home in physicality. That is a unique process for each one of us. Some of us may experience a physical illness that is encoded with teachings to help us unpack the wisdom of this higher light. For other’s it may be an even deeper crisis or initiation into the belly of the whale, where they may lose sight of life for a while until stable footing is regained in the here and now on drier land.
Trust that what arises for you is not a punishment, nor does it mean you are not evolving! Your soul is guiding you, trust that.
Is there a way through pain?
How and when is a personal path based on your soul's lessons & choices.
There is a mastery involved in learning how to work with and embrace suffering in all forms.
*Build a strong foundation within you to allow space for the core issues to surface in a safe way is paramount.
*Have a meeting place within you and a physical place that is a safe zone to fully feel your pain without fearing complete annihilation is important. Allowance and permission are key, as well as immense compassion for your humanness and the suffering of others.
When we can truly go to the shadow depths in ourselves and allow healing , we birth a monumental new template for others to access these places too.
*Some may wish to seek the help of a professional spiritual counsellor or psychotherapist that resonates with them if there are deep patterns difficult to access alone. Listen to your soul and reach out if you need that.
To feel is to live; to experience the pulse of life running through you lighting up all the unlived spaces within you.
* Set up support systems of nourishing, heart centered activities and friendships that help bring perspective and joy into your life.
* Limit exposure to media/social media and heavy dense places that are already overloaded with collective pain is a good idea too.
* Writing out the pain and allowing it to speak is highly effective (e.g. let the inner child speak to you)
* Engaging physical movement like shaking, free flow dancing and toning your emotions are powerful tools that shift energy to allow breakthrough.
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
― Jalaluddin Rumi
As our world appears to be in the clutches of an epidemic of pain body associated reactions, our contribution to make a difference can be the embracing of our inner wounds. We can make suffering our great ally without being ruled by it.
Thank your core wounds as they are your creations. Love them back into their rightful place within your endlessly expanding heart space.
There is no greater time than right NOW, and each of us is primed with the exact tools we require to meet with suffering, make it our ally and not only survive but to flourish infinitely.
If you have come this far, thank you beautiful soul! May your path be graced with the strength, courage and divine support to live wholly and happily. Love MaRa
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Horses have always held a very precious place in my heart.
They have taken me into vast spaces within my being previously unaccessed. Places and times so ancient I do not have 3d languaging for. I go deeply into a sense of awe and wonder when I communicate with them, connecting with a tribal oversoul. My inner child feels soul nourished; my heart uplifted by their beautiful presence. I very much feel part of the tribe or herd.
Since a child, I have been in love with horses. I dreamt of having my own to steward, but that never came into my practical reality living in the city. I had pictures of horses and horsey paraphernalia all over my room as a young teen. I was obsessed! I went to weekly horse riding lessons, but after a jumping fall I became very nervous, thus my riding days slowly faded away to intermittent trail rides over the years.
I began to have powerful dreams where I would be running wild with the horses; many times I woke to feel them in my bedroom watching over me. This was my first taste of the animal kingdom as "guides".
In my teens and twenties, city life closed the door to the animal kingdom for me. It has only been in the last 8 years, as I awakened more of my natural self, that my connection to the animal's and their sacred wisdom, has been a well source of healing and heart kinship.
Learning to open my "sight" and receive the messages from the animal brethren has been a precious remembrance of my indigenous capacities. They have taught me how to trust in the natural world and how to open my heart to bridge across species and kingdoms.
They have helped me find my way back to myself. To enter into the timeless flow of elemental life.
It was clear that the animals wanted to communicate with me regardless of them being "physically" in my waking world. They wanted me to know they had my back!
I have journeyed the inner realms through shamanic rituals, meeting key animal spirit guides who continue to shape and direct my life's experiences. In some of my deepest initiations of soul awakening, I have had key animal archetypes work on my subtle bodies to bring back parts of my soul that had left due to past/present life trauma.
There is no divide here between the waking world and the magical. Our animal kin can shape shift into many forms to assist us. We just have to be open to their assistance.
The seals and dolphins have been other constant companions on my personal healing journey. I would sit for hours on shorelines, singing to them and communicating telepathically with them on the issues that were surfacing from my unconscious seeking wholeness.
They would also come into my dreams with their medicine, going right to the points of disharmony and pain. I experienced miraculous clearing's of old energy the more I actively engaged them through intention and heart gratitude.
Tune in the the animals that are in your waking reality.
What do they have to say to you?
Do you keep seeing the same animal over and over?
Go within and ask them to impart their wisdom. Look up the animal totem messages online for that particular animal to see if anything triggers a knowing in you.
The bird tribe are fantastic and accurate messengers. There is nothing more majestic and inspiring to me than seeing a great eagle or hawk flying above me. My heart instantly soars to meet the currents of spirit. I know that an important sign has come into my reality and I must pay immediate attention, seeking counsel with source!
This is a relationship like any other; one that requires our loving interactive presence. A synergy of hearts.
I continue to open and learn from our beloved animal family; visioning for one day still to be a steward of a noble horse ally :)
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Here is a video on my experiences with the Seals :)
Faith has alway been a noble, loving , yet often elusive ally in my life.
That is, until I learned through many scuffles with doubt; fear & confusion; how to employ her as a constant companion to co-create my own reality with.
She is always there in the back garden of my awareness, even when I think she has packed her bags and left me high and dry!
She has lifted me up and out of some very contracted, fearful places during times of immeasurable doubt that had crippled my forward movement in life.
You may know those times yourself? Times when you just do not know what to believe in; where your life is going or the overwhelm from the perceived "doom" of a world in chaos.
There have been many times, particularly during the "dark night of the soul" initiations I have experienced, where I could not see the wood from the trees. I felt I would never feel or see the light of her presence in my heart again. Yet somehow a crack would appear in the matrix of my fear & doubt where she would fly in through, like a blaze of precious sunlight after days of incessant stormy conditions.
Her medicine would fill the gaps of doubt, illuminating the path of possibility in me. Her arms would hold me until I felt safe to open my eyes to dream again.
Faith is a vital friend in the life of a visionary.
We are ALL visionaries.
We all have the tools of creator magic within us to vision for a life that brings us joy and happiness. It's about engaging these tools in our own unique way to effect the changes we wish to make in our lives or to call in the life we dream of.
Faith has our back if we believe:)! She can steady our infant steps as we blaze an unknown path into the heart of our dreams helping to bring them to the landing strip of our reality.
confidence or trust in a person or thing:
faith in another's ability.
belief that is not based on proof:
He had faith that the hypothesis would be substantiated by fact.
belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion:
the firm faith of the Pilgrims.
belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.:
to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.
Faith is especially important in these great times of evolutionary change.
Many are dealing with heightened fear and confusion relating to "doom's day" scenarios in our illusory world of suffering. And of course, the more we fear the greater the manifestation of that fear occurs in our reality to support that narrative in us!
Many are suffering immensely as old stuff that has been buried for eons in the underbelly of the collective consciousness of humanity surfaces for us to face, heal, love and integrate into wholeness.
I have deep compassion for each one of us on this human journey right now. I know how challenging it is to be told to "face your fear" and "just have faith" , when you are in the midst of a monumental leap into the darkness. It's almost an unreachable mythical place!
However, I have experienced the miraculous occurring in my life when I call upon faith. I may not believe in her in those moments, but there is a hint of something greater than me pulling me towards another reality and that's where the meet point happens.
It is then the dance with beloved faith begins. The first steps are always the hardest until it becomes a more fluid, synergist relationship as trust blossoms forth.
Faith is the gatekeeper of vision. She shows us the light of our true potential and bolsters our confidence in order to reach higher. Embody deeper and live the life we came here to live.
Here are some of the ways I encourage FAITH to come into my life :
May the gifts of Faith light up a path to your soul's true expression & purpose!
May a light in the dark be found for all who suffer.
May it guide each one of us to a place of living & loving in peace & unity. Within and Without. And so it is.
I bow to the fellow soul traveller in YOU, With love, MaRa LuaSa
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I have been divinely nudged to write this article, before the onset of increased attention, through the much hyped “Stars Wars VII ~ The Force Awakens” film, about to release worldwide soon.
Skellig Michael, a sacred site off the west coast of Ireland, is believed to be prominently featured in some of the scenes.
I first heard of the filming on Skellig Michael last summer; I have to admit my heart was conflicted by what felt like possible disrespect on some level, of a very sacred place. I am Irish native going back many generations on both sides of my ancestry. Though I am not currently residing there, I am very connected to the land as this is part of my own planetary mission as an earth grid keeper and energetic steward.
I, and many other spiritual pilgrims seeking connection with God/source, have held this ancient island in reverence through the ages and I am passionate about honoring the sanctity of our planet’s holy place & spaces. My heart is compelled to share some of it’s spiritual legacy & history to enable a deeper connection and understanding of the power (force) that in encoded in the land there.
Skellig Michael is the larger of two ancient towering majestic sea crags, that are pyramidal in their structure. “Little Skellig”, is the adjacent smaller peak. The islands are situated 12km off the south west coast of Ireland in the wilds of the Atlantic Ocean.
Many believe they are mountain peaks from the atlantean era, still carrying the energies of those times both dark & light. It is a natural temple where two intersecting earth leylines cross, creating a node of energy that is very powerful.
The island was the chosen home of a small group of ascetic monks back in the 6th – 13th Century, who sought deeper communion with God in isolation from the outside world. The remains of this monastery are still intact; the stone beehive geometric structures are alive with spirit evoking energies imprinted in the stones from these devout hermits. You can definitely imagine the “force awakening” within you here!
The islands are designated as a world UNESCO heritage site, so there is a limit to daily visits due to the delicate nature of the archaeology, protected sea birds and plant life.
Through many tumultuous journeys there myself, I know it is not an easy task to get there! Often the boats that leave the nearby villages of Portmagee & Valencia in the Iveragh peninsula, Co. Kerry, are challenged in the choppy waters and large swells. It almost seems that the island chooses who it wishes to allow step onto it’s timeless rocky landing.
Sometimes they are cancelled altogether when mother nature sings her wild songs. If you are called to go, definitely check in on the weather and surrender to divine flow.
When Visiting Skellig Michael: I invite you to tune into this powerful place and ask why you are drawn to it. Here are some tips to prepare for a journey to a sacred site that I find useful:
Skellig Michael is on the western edge of the european landmass. It is the first sacred site along a long line (leyline) of ancient pilgrimage places running from the entry point or pinnacle point of the leyline in Ireland through the UK (Glastonbury, St.Michaels Mount), France, Italy, Greece then onto Mt.Carmel in Israel.
This line is known as the “Michael” Leyline through it’s alignment with ArchAngel Michael who the guardian and overseer of this energy line. It was known for thousands of years before the advent of Christianity, and linked many holy places of earth and cosmic power.
It was known as the “Atlas Line” in Atlantis; much of the energetics of this ancient leyline are said to have been largely kept in tact by the work of the druids and key grid keepers since the fall of Atlantis.
On a planetary level, this island, as a multi-dimensional portal, is pivotal to the integration of the divine masculine codes for humanity’s evolution. The energy that emits from this portal extends in all directions for hundreds of miles. It is a point of cosmic energy and earth merging as one. As such it can be a place of merging the polarities in oneself ~ male/female rebalance. The colour rays that emanate, for those attuned, are the violet, emerald & blue rays.
The moment I caught my first glimpse of these spectacular pinnacle points from the land on the Iveragh peninsula, I was mesmerized. The sheer power and sharp angles of these dramatic peaks took my breath away and tuned me into an ancient place within me. I felt compelled to get my feet on that holy ground. It is in the sanctuary of these natural high, spiritual energy places that we can access the inner sanctum of our being and open to more of our divine potential.
These physical locations can act as a cosmic trigger to awaken and activate us to the remembrance of who we are and we are here.
My first journey was steeped in ancient remembrance every step of the way; these dramatic peaks took my breath away, my inner eye seeing blazes of light of violet and emerald hues on the approach. The boat ride out was an initiation in itself and shook out the cobwebs (literally in feeling sick and nauseous)! I was then taken into a deep silence as I felt my heart and mind merge as one with the landscape. I remembered this place. I felt at home. The consciousness of the whales, dolphins and seals added to a very transcendent experience.
George Bernard Shaw, a famous Irish playwright, described Skellig as “incredible, impossible, mad place” and as “part of our dream world”. I definitely concur on all of those descriptions.
The stone guardians are abundant on the island, with some aptly named by their lifelike appearance. The “Wailing woman” , who sits on the first incline up the nearly 700 stone steps to the top of the crag, drew me into council with her. My energy body receiving the information of the island I needed to navigate it’s spaces with care and gentleness.
You then come to “Christ’s saddle”, a flat area between the two peaks; here is another good place to connect in with the spirit of the island. The south peak is closed to visitors due to the steep climb. The north slope above the monastery is where I connected most, bridging the inner and outer of my being, as well as in some of the beehive cells in the monastery, due to the domed beehive geometry lending itself well to divine introspection!
There is a vast array of energy available here, through all the seen and unseen. I would simply be open and listen to where you are personally drawn.
Helpful Sites for Visiting Skellig Michael:http://www.worldheritageireland.ie/skellig-michael/visitor-information/
A lovely B & B, near the harbor in Portmagee. I would suggest coming the evening
One of many boat companies I recommend: http://www.skelligsrock.com/book/ ~ Season is 1st April – 31st Oct.
It is here I shall conclude, yet there is an infinite well of cosmic story still to be written about this beautiful celestial earth temple.
It is my prayer that the forces of light, through all time and space, continue to safeguard this holy place; that all who feel called to visit, come with love and reverent intention, receiving and awakening to their own cosmic connections ~ To their own sacred force of light within!
***It is my passion to connect with sacred sites across the planet and guide others in their planning or soul connections to these places.
If you feel called, I offer “tune In” sessions via Skype worldwide & remote Heartspace healing sessions:
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Many heart blessings, MaRa LuaSa
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We are infinite beings who made a choice to be here on earth right now, whether we are conscious of that or not!
Most of us have been around this "eternal" incarnation block a good few times now :)
We came to make a difference and to help build a more integrated, balanced and unified world. A world where all beings are free to be and live in harmony. At least, my soul knows this to be true, even if at times my mind tries to tell me it is not when it gets fooled by the outer illusion of doom!
Sometimes, it can feel like the craziest choice ever in the chaos of all that is unfolding on our planet right now.
As things fall apart, we are driven to simplify and to source our true roots. To reconnect with nature to help us find equilibrium and truth (our inner nature). Our physical roots come into greater focus as survival issues bring up ancient buried fears within our hearts.
In these times, we can look for ways that support us to live a healthy, balanced & happy life (nature; nourishing foods; supportive family, expressing our gifts...). The roots we came from in our ancestry; both our blood and soul lineages, become valuable sources of information for us to heal and find new solutions to old issues. We can draw from the past wisdom; taking that which is helpful for NOW and letting go of the rest. With love and gratitude for those that paved the many roads before us.
I know my own journey, has had me chase down every hidden crevice in my ancestral line energetics; so that I am free from carrying in my DNA, any unresolved issues inherited through my blood & soul lineage. Doing this allows greater soul expansion and a freedom to move beyond our ancestors level of consciousness, thus elevating the whole soul group.
In this work, I have rediscovered hidden treasures of gifts I had forgotten that were lodged deep in the ancestral memory bank. I also received magical contact from the other side supporting my current mission on earth.
I tell you, it's been a giant dive into the underbelly of unhealed trauma and buried memories too. I have been consciously clearing both my mother and fathers' lines energetically for nearly 6 years now and still there is more to integrate. I have been through traumatic past life/ current life healing processes; reclaiming parts of my soul that have carried ancestral pain from long ago. This naturally flowed into helping others initiate the work in their own lives and through that I helped facilitate karmic resolution between various ancestral souls.
It is so important to do this work consciously. It shifts realities for whole family constellations. It can bring miraculous healing and light to those that are suffering. It can also avalanche and topple the most complex repressed structures in a family so that the healing can begin. It opens a gap in the family matrix so the light can get in and work it's magic!
The soul lineage is another huge area of reconnecting with the ancestors of our root races on earth and integrating the collective group karma's in our being. Most of us have probably incarnated into each of them and experienced life from all these aspects, therefore the prominent themes to heal and integrate in our hearts would be those of victim/poverty consciousness; slave/master roles; persecution in all forms; separation from homeland; immigration; war & catastrophe.
I know this may feel like an insurmountable task, but it really does become a domino effect once you begin. Little by little, in perfect timing , the various issues come into view that need your conscious presence and heart intention to heal. Sometimes, just a clear heart intention to see, heal and integrate your ancestral karma is enough to get started. Listen deep to what you need to do.
It may be clearing some old energies in the home or letting go of some family "heirlooms". This is an individual and personal journey. Always trust your inner guidance.
Always love and gratitude to the ones on whose shoulders we stand.
May peace be with the ancestors of all races and nations. And so it is.
Love & Blessings,
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I Am She Who Dreams;
Who Plants the seeds,
Of eternal promise;
Hopes and Visions of Whole-y Lands;
Unified hearts and abundant light.
I Am She Who Dreams;
The dances of creation,
In Rhythmic One-Time of the Heart;
Twirling; Swirling; Raptuous Rituals;
That step in time with Gaia’s pulse.
I Am She Who Dreams;
Of love so deep and wondrous,
It shatters illusions
That have shackled the heart,
And pushes the breath of life,
Into the places that were un-lived.
I Am She Who Dreams;
The Foundations of Our Children’s Future;
Who Lays the stones – the sacred bones – upon the earth;
Of future temples,
Where sacred love,
Joins hearts as ONE.
I Am She Who Dreams;
Awakens the Heart,
Within and Without,
Of a New World;
A Unified Collective Harmonic;
Where miracles are manifest in every moment;
Where every being lives in the wholeness of embodied self;
In the ever expansive cavern of the ONE Heart.
I Am She Whose Dreams Be-Come a Reality....
MaRa LuaSa ,April 2013
Image credit: Francene Hart